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A mixed bag of views, comments and articles by a surgeon and novelist.
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Copyright ©2011 Muse India |
Let me see: I like taking risks. Within limits, of course. When we
were in Bihar, I have sat across my clinic table and discussed the
condition patients with members of criminal gangs; But outside, I
kept my distance. Vijay, my husband, was foolhardy enough to attend an
all-night wedding in a nearby town once; if there were any criminals
among the guests, he wasn't aware and luckily, nothing untoward
happened. I've pillion-ridden a dozen times from Mathura to Agra, and
a few times to Delhi, when it wasn't very safe to do it; watched
movies (B-Grade Hindi or the latest Bhojpuri) in a theatre where the
owner would warn habitual trouble-makers by firing shots in the air;
and fought off a severe attack of Malaria with a Quinine drip
administered by a nurse.
The second reason for my choosing to work outside the cities must be
the unpredictable newness of cases that pour into the clinic every
day. Unlike the set-pieces that one sees in large, multi-speciality
hospitals of the metros, far-flung areas offer fascinating cases that
challenge, educate and teach something very precious: humility. I thus
got to remove a malarial spleen weighing 4.8 kg, a massive hydrocele
of the vulva in a woman, a calcified deposit the size and shape of a
cup from a scrotum, operated on penile cancers and coaxed half a kilo
of stones from the gut of a six-year old, mistaken a thermometer
inside the urinary bladder of an adolescent schoolgirl for a tumour…
Working without the help of other surgeons, I learnt to use my own
knowledge, common sense and a wide range of surgical books and
journals. I understood that surgery itself is quite simple if you
tackle problems with a clear mind.
For the last three years since we moved to Lonavla in Maharashtra, I
have worked as a general practitioner. I always wanted to try my hand
at it, partly out of curiosity but mainly because I needed more time
for my writing and my other interests. I have varied clients who have
come to this state from various parts of the country in search of
work. So I get to hear Marathi, Kannada, Urdu, the singsong Bihari
type of Hindi and Oriya. Most of my patients can just about afford the
price of medicines at wholesale rates. Some charm me out of that too.
The other day I treated a man for a nasty infection of the skin. He
paid me half the amount that the medicines cost and promised to pay up
the rest 'as soon as he could'. Then he proceeded to advise me: "I see
that you're working alone, without any help. I'll put you in touch
with a very good doctor (he was trained in Bombay, you know) at the
government hospital. He will guide you."
In what way would this doctor guide me? "He's in charge of the medical
stores. He can get you a lot of medicines for free."
I explained why I would not accept the 'guidance' from this good
doctor willing to help me with medicines siphoned off from a hospital
and my patient left, disappointed at my stupidity. I hope he comes
back with the thirty rupees he owes me.
One learns something every day!
The death became public when Boju walked to the flowering mango tree
and fired two shots, choosing his father's favourite gun from among
the twelve on the gun-rack. Swift-footed Yeravas were already out of
the gate and across the ramp to the opposite side of the stream.
"Yajamana! It's Madaiah Yajamana!"
Villagers snaked in through the gate like disciplined pilgrims: women
in white, men in their best sober clothes. The dead man wasn't just
anyone; he had married Cheppudira Ponnappa Dewan's daughter and had
received the title of Rao Bahadur for his loyalty. Such solidity of
background. He deserved a splendid funeral and the family could afford
it.
The sons laid Madaiah on a stone slab near the well, peeled off his
dirt-encrusted clothes and washed away the accretions of eleven years
of decay. Neighbours, relatives and prompters were at hand.
"Bathe him in scalding water!"
"Sit him up! Sit him up!"
"The sovereign on the forehead!"
"The mirror, where's the hand-mirror?"
They dressed him like a bridegroom in kupya chale, with the peeche
kathi at his waist, covered his wispy hair with the gold-lined turban
and put a mirror in his hand. They stuck a gold sovereign on his
forehead and sat him up in the front room because the Kaleyanda men
never take anything lying down. The round table was pushed to a corner
to make place for more people. The sons changed into white dhotis,
covered their bare chests with white cloth and stood at the door,
stupefied by the suddenness of death.
Mourners kept coming; they leaned on the round table, sat on it,
toppled furniture and filled every inch of space, like stacked linen.
Such discomfort was borne with fortitude that was an expression of
their caring. They came all day to touch the feet of the dead man and
to drop a rupee coin in the brass plate at his feet; they would stay
till the body was cremated.
Chambavva kept vigil near the body in widow's white, with the shoulder
cloth knotted in front, greying hair loosened, denuded of chains,
earrings and her tiger-claw brooch. Her soft skin was unused to the
roughness of the reed mat on which she sat but her grief overshadowed
physical discomfort. Her status had slipped from that of wife to
widow. Even a decaying husband was better than no husband.
True, the Kodavas treated their women better than most but a widow was
a symbol of grief. Though her husband had ceased to exist for God
knows how long, his physical death left a vacuum. He looked so fresh
and youthful now, after the cleaning. Chambavva's mind wandered back
to the days of his hook-nosed handsomeness. She remembered the
strength of his arms, the eagerness in his stride and the precise
confidence of his limbs and she bent her head so as to avoid glances
of pity from the women who pressed around her like doves of peace.
Near Chambavva stood Nanji, pale and prominent in her advanced
pregnancy. She rearranged garlands, relit the incense sticks, served
black coffee with puttoo to the guests, and tried bravely to hide her
sorrow.
Nanji was the saddest person at the funeral. She did not mourn the
death of her father-in-law which had been coming a long time. It did
not sadden her any more than the felling of a rotting athi tree or a
withering coffee bush. Her tears were for the splendid diamond ring
that Madaiah used as his instrument of suicide. After slitting his
gullet lengthwise and causing him to vomit a chamberpot full of blood,
it had passed slyly into the stomach and would still be there, in his
fermenting gastric juices. Neither Baliyanna or Boju or any of the
Kaleyanda men thought of the possibility of rescuing the ring. The
diamond, big and perfect, was a family heirloom that should rightfully
have passed to her husband. Now it was irrevocably lost.
The moronic stupidity of men who could not think clearly in moments of
grief! It could easily have been removed. Had she not once, when
slitting the belly of a chicken, found a gold sovereign with the royal
insignia of Queen Victoria lying face down amidst undigested grains of
rice? Had she not washed and rubbed and scrubbed it and added it to
the treasures that she kept in a red satin purse in the bottom drawer
of her wooden chest? Nanji itched for action but any suggestion from
her could easily be misconstrued. So she submerged her grief in the
endlessness of her duties, ensuring that everyone had eaten and
pausing to feed the little son who slept in a cradle in the bedroom.
There was no single person at the funeral to direct the course of
events; it was directed by several men and women reputed to 'know'
these things. The rituals went on till four in the afternoon when ten
young men of the village dressed in black kupya-chale appeared, with
their guns ready for the funeral honours. Baliyanna, Boju and four
cousins carried the body on a bamboo chair to the half-acre clearing
that was reserved for family cremations, where one dead son had
already preceded the father. Fresh stacks of wood had been readied for
the cremation. Three times they carried the body around the pyre;
Chambavva followed, with a cracked mud pot on her head, water
trickling down over her face. The cracked pot symbolised the
dihiscence of her married life. Nanji walked behind Chambavva,
throwing rice into the unlit pyre. When the Rao Bahadur had been
mounted on his final perch, the sons, wife and relatives touched his
lips with wet tulsi leaves in a final act of farewell; Boju removed
the silver sheathed dagger from his dead father's waist and Chambavva
broke her bangles over the body; the ten young men lined up before the
pyre, raised their guns in a slow graceful arc and fired twice.
Baliyanna lit the pyre.
For eleven days Chambavva did not comb her hair or sleep on her bed;
along with the family she abstained from meat, milk and spices and
each day at noon she offered food, first to the spirit of her dead
husband and then to the crows. With Nanji, she walked to the backyard
with the food wrapped in banana leaves, laid it near the well and
clapping her hands, called: "Ka! Ka! Ka!" The crows – death meant
little to these realists who only believed in survival – were happy to
feast on the food. The crows enjoying the food meant that the dead
person too was satisfied. Chambavva did it for eleven days until the
soul of her husband joined that of his ancestors and had no further
need of worldly victuals.
At the eleventh-day ceremony a hundred guests were fed besides the
Yeravas, the workers on the estate and a multitude of wanderers,
beggars and derelicts. Then came the pilgrimage to Talakaveri on
Brahmagiri hill, where the family scattered the ashes in the river. In
the evening when they came home, they ended their abstinence by eating
thaliya puttoo with chicken and drinking coffee with milk. Only
Chambavva the widow would henceforth wear white and no other colour.
Early next day Baliyanna sitting in his father's study to sort out
urgent matters of the estate, saw the cream-coloured envelope
addressed to his father. It had arrived from England on the day of
the suicide and Nanji, who had put it there, did not for a moment
think that anything could be important enough to intrude on the
immediate tragedy.
So it stayed there, leaning on a jar of water until Baliyanna slit
open the envelope and read the three-page letter. He bellowed with
rage and Nanji, cleaning sardines in the kitchen, wiped her hands on
her sari and rushed to the study.
"What is it?"
A photograph slipped from between the pages of the letter and fell to
the floor. Nanji picked it up and saw the cause of Baliyanna's rage.
Appachu, the star son of Madaiah and in England studying for the bar
stood with his arm around a white woman. "He's married an English
whore!" cried Baliyanna. He grabbed the photograph, tore it to shreds
and threw it into the chamber pot that had served his father right
until his death. "Thu!"
Appachu had passed his law examination with honours and married one
Marjorie Hicks who was neither English, nor a whore. She was a fair
complexioned, unfortunately plain-looking Eurasian, the daughter of an
undertaker from Tooting Bec. In the same letter, Appachu conveyed the
tragic news that Machu, the other brother studying medicine at Charing
Cross Hospital in London had gone on a weekend spree to Torquay and
drowned while swimming.
Machu's death did not shock so much because death, when it is an
accident, is unavoidable. But one could certainly think before jumping
into marriage with a half-caste. "He could have got the loveliest of
Kodava girls for the asking!" Baliyanna shouted.
Appachu had further committed the unforgivable sin of disclosing both
catastrophes in one letter. Had the Rao Bahadur read it, he would have
had monumental reasons for suicide. His death now became a greater
misfortune because effect preceded the cause; the suicide remained a
futile act, without reasoned justification, which could have given it
some valour.
The family was branded by three distinct tragedies. People talked.
"There will be no escaping the anger of our ancestors." "Kodagu will
be punished."
The rains were held back that year. For months on end the river Kaveri
ran dry and when the rains finally came, it was time for Kailpodh when
Kodavas worship their weapons and too late for the paddy and coffee.
The drought affected the economy of Kodagu for several years, and the
burden of guilt was borne by the family of the Rao Bahadur.
"One morning a chill of horror ran through the serried ranks. There in
Part Two Orders were the words: 'At 0600 hours the Battery will
asemble for a FIVE MILE RUN!'
Strong gunners fell fainting to the floor, some lay weeping on their
beds. FIVE MILES? That wasn't a run, that was deportation! On that
fateful dawn the duty bombardier bade us rise: 'Wakey, Wakey, Hands
off ----- on Socks.' ((fill in that word which rhymes with socks, if
you please.)
The defenders of England rose wraith-like from their blankets. All
silent, save those great lung-wracking coughs that follow early
morning cigarettes. The cough would start in silence; first there was
the great inhale, the smoke sucked deep down into the lungs, and held
there while the victim started what was to be an agonised body spasm.
The face would first turn sweaty lemon, the shoulders hunched, the
back humped like a Brahmin bull. The legs would bend while the hand
grabbed the thighs to support the coming convilsion.
The cough would start somewhere down in the shins, the eyes would be
screwed tight to prevent being jettisoned from the head, the mouth
gripped tight to preserve the teeth. Suddenly! From afar comes a
rumbling like a hundred Early Victorian Water Closets. Slowly the body
would start to tremble and the bones to rattle. The first things to
shake were the ankles, then up the shins travelled the shakes, and
next the knees would revolve and turn jelliform; from there up the
thighs to the stomach it came, now heading for the blackened lungs.
This was the stage when a sound like a three-ton garden roller being
pulled over corrugated iron was heard approaching the heaving chest.
Following this up the convulsed body was a colour pattern, from a
delicate green at the ankles to layers of pinks, blue, varicose purple
and sweaty red. As the cough rose up the inflated throat, the whole
six colours were pushed up into the victim's face. It had now reached
the inner mouth; the last line of defence, the cheeks, were blown out
the size of football bladders.
The climax was nigh! The whole body was now a purple shuddering mass!
After several mammoth attempts to contain the cough, the mouth would
finally explode open. Loose teeth would fly out, bits of breakfast,
and a terrible rasping noice filled the room. Aweeioussheiough!
Followed by a long, silent stream of spume-laden arir. On and on it
went until the whole body was drained of oxygen, the eyes were
popping, and veins like vines standing on the head which was now
'twixt kees . This atrophied pose held for seconds. Finally, with a
dying attempt, fresh air was sucked back into the body, just in time
to do it all over again. Bear in mind this was usually performed by
some sixty men all at the same time."
Cigarette anyone?
Marginality is fluid, and in continuous flux. Its meaning will change
too, with the times. You could say that right now, in Indian politics,
Rahul Gandhi is the epicentre. Tomorrow he might find himself
marginalised, pushed to the periphery, like his grandmother was once,
after the Emergency. If the political climate decides the destiny of
certain people, then the financial status, cultural identity, caste or
race might decide the destiny of others.
Those of us who have escaped such marginalisation, are the lucky ones.
I come from a tribal community in south India. We are called Kodavas
from Kodagu which is also known by its British name, Coorg. We were
hunters and ancestor-worshippers and had no inkling of the Hindu gods
until the 17th century when neighbouring kingdoms invaded, built
temples and gradually Hinduised us. There are several tribal
communities in Kodagu but the one I belong to happens to be the
dominant tribe. In the last couple of centuries we have exploited the
other tribes, taken over every bit of land and more or less crushed
them. Some have no choice but to work on our land in order to survive.
Many face extinction.
I don't feel proud to say any of this. I only state it as a fact. One
of my novels, The Scent of Pepper deals with this issue. We have done
is exactly what the white Americans did to the Red Indians, what the
upper caste Hindus did to the lower castes.
From my position as a writer, I do not see literature as separate from
life. In literature too, marginality can be a strength or a curse. The
Second World War gave birth to a certain type of Jewish literature
which reminds us of the base levels to which human cruelty can
descend. In India, Dalit literature gave tongue to a huge section of
oppressed people. Until the 1970's, except for Mulk Raj Anand who
wrote feelingly about the cruel, oppressive force of the caste system,
there was little in Indian literature that highlighted the suffering
of Dalits to a larger public. The Marathi writer Namdeo Dasal came on
the scene, threw every rule in the literary cannon in the ditch and
wrote in a hurtfully original voice. It humbled the non-Dalits into
accepting the fact that true literature is not elitist, it is just
human.
Mahashweta Devi has spent a life-time writing about the plight of
tribals. In recent years there have been several gifted writers have
emerged from the North-East. We are able to read their work, thanks to
good translations.
Marginality, however, is a delicate issue. One can become obsessed
with one's vicitmhood and that is dangerous. Marginalised people
(feminists, gays, Dalits, minority religions, to name a few) will
serve their purpose better if they are open to criticism and deeper
analysis of their condition. They must be able to doubt their own
idelogy and reflect upon it from time to time. And political
correctness should not make others shy of being critical, when they
have to.
Internet has given tongue to many issues of marginality which until
recently were not known of widely. Internet can be a great platform
for debate and dialogue. But increasingly, one finds a great deal of
shrill argument that is prejudiced and often, hate-filled or
rhetorical.
I guess this too is essential, as a vent to supressed anger and
hatred. But if we are to move forward, our minds must learn to
separate the grain from the husk.
For me, the only way of doing this is to doubt myself. As a writer, I
want to retain my freedom to doubt myself, my beliefs, my victimhood.
I want to be able to doubt my heroes – the Gurus, Gods, Gandhis,
Ambedkars and the Obamas. And I want always to respect that freedom in
others.
Coming back to the literary conference and the several papers I
listened to, how worthwhile were they? Merit, especially in
literature, is vindicated by posterity. Marginal or otherwise, the job
of a writer is to write. The less I talk about it, the better.
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I'm dizzy with the knowledge I gained in three days of listening to
learned papers. As creative writers, we thought we would be excused
from making memorable speeches.
Some hope. The charming HOD of the English Department was insistent
that we both speak on the theme of the conference: "Reinventing
Marginality. A Multidisciplinary Approach to Literature."
My, my. Too late to decline the invitation, so I got to work. Here's the gist:
In my medical college years and then as a young doctor, I read very
little besides my medical books and journals. You could call it the
ten-year starvation that left me with severe malnutrition in literary
matters. In my own way, I have tried to make up for this deficiency.
But academics eludes me. Visiting a university is a learning
experience, every time.
Marginality can be looked at from different perspectives: One is the
marginalisation of those ignored by society and 'pushed' to the
periphery. The very poor, the uneducated, the Dalits and tribals have
repeatedly faced indifference and oppression. In a foreign country,
the uneducated immigrant is often marginalised, like the unemployed
blacks in London; in the US, the poor black communities and the
Hispanics.
In India, the need for survival impels such people to take up jobs
that provide for basics like food, clothing and shelter. So we have
rural folk migrating in droves to constructions sites, quarries and
road-works. The delicate filaments of their own culture and tradition
which are particularly important to them snap and disappear; they
forget their mother tongue, their folk songs, their gods, their
families. It is a tragic existence, the ultimate result of which is
millions of people who must lose everything that is precious in life
in order to fill their stomachs. It is cultural suicide that happens
every day before our eyes.
The periphery or the margin is nothing but the blind spot in the
collective eye of the powerful sections of society.
Humiliation and loss of dignity are the worst outcome of
marginalisation. Having been denied the opportunities for progress,
marginalised communities take a long while to catch up with the rest.
No society can be complacent until it has addressed their sufferings.
How about me?Then there are people like myself and my husband who
chose to live on the margins. As a doctor, after my surgical training,
I've worked in small towns and rural areas. It was a personal choice.
My husband and I are both writers and as writers, we do not wish to
live in cities, if we can help it. Our marginalisation is voluntary.
It offers us a ringside view of society and the absence of too many
distractions.
Artists and writers often tend to live on the periphery. The muse
seeks quiet in which to nurture imagination and creativity. However,
many writers are able to produce their masterpieces even while they
live in cities. Their creativity feeds off the constant interaction
with society.
Many writers, in recent times, have moved out of cities.This does not
mean that writers do not like the limelight. We do, we do. I like
being made a fuss, of but only once in a while – that is, once in
three or four years, when I have managed to write a book and it is due
for release. This brief moment of fame with book launches, readings,
interviews, reviews and the fan-mail is quite wonderful but it is also
exhausting. It takes away several months of my writing life and I can
never make up for it. I feel frustrated for having spent so much of my
energy, apparently, for publicity. But then, I know that once my work
has gone into the public domain, I have to put in some effort in order
to draw attention to it.
For a writer, it is a privilege to be invisible.
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